Erotic massage is something you have to experience. And then you will understand that you have probably never experienced anything like this before. It was not so long ago that I too thought that erotic massage was simply useless. I didn`t want to talk about such things, and I didn`t even realize that it wasn`t the way I said it. But I didn`t realize that until much later. I`ve always been the type that could easily have sex three times a day, my boyfriend was the exact opposite, and we didn`t have much sex. It bothered me, it suited him, and he didn`t want to change anything about it at all. And I already noticed that he doesn`t care about me.
With every problem, he got up and walked away. He didn`t care at all if something was bothering me or not. And I wondered, where are his words about love and how much he loves me. Suddenly he didn`t say anything like that, and he was completely different. And I didn`t know him. He didn`t even give me an erotic massage like before. At first, I thought it was just temporary and that it would change. At one point I even started to think that maybe it was because he was much younger than me. And I was 10 years older again, so age might play a role in this case. He didn`t know what he wanted (at least it seemed that way to me) and I was already heading elsewhere.
I longed for love and understanding, but I didn`t get it at all, and in the end, I started to blame myself, that maybe it`s because of me that he`s like this. But if I had known before that he was on dating sites and texting other women, I definitely wouldn`t have worried. But it also took some time before I realized that he was pulling my nose and that he had already cheated on me several times – both mentally and physically. The feeling was horrible, I felt completely crazy, like my heart suddenly broke into a million pieces. I didn`t want anything to do with him anymore. And it will probably take me a long time to start trusting someone again..